A New Type of Leader

I wrote this poem in 2011 Inspired by the many positive changes we are seeing around the world. The importance of optimism,hope,kindness,forgiveness,sharing,compassion. Here we are in 2016 and it seems fitting again to share but for a different reason from when I originally intended.

In light of the USA election a new type of leader is required, a LEADER in all of us. Leaders that have the tenacity and faith to face the challenges and the opportunities that arise together because quite simply we have no choice!😊

I hope you enjoy reading ! xo

The World is Changing

The world is changing before my eyes

As rulers crumble and leaders rise

In every flower bursts a smile

The richness of colors I sit for awhile

To revel in the hope such a simple joy brings

Listen to the music playing as the angel sweetly sings

Overwhelming at times to comprehend how anger and hate stifle the air

With each raging fist and evil stare

People still fighting for a right to vote, to revenge a death, to love another

Why is it so hard to regard each other as a sister and brother?

It makes you wonder if we are ever truly free

When internally you discover you must let go so you can begin to see

Set aside your arrogance and ego for a time

Put yourself in the shoes of another it isn’t such a crime

Mother Nature is the mightiest force we will ever see

With conviction she is teaching lessons for you and me

All over the world homes, families, trinkets capturing memories are swiftly lost

The lessons of strength are being taught at a cost

A different set of emotions now fill the air

Is any of this just or fair?

As people find strength to begin from scratch

Hearts sheltered in hope like a hole in a pair of jeans with a brand new patch

I sit quietly and think about this emotion I am a hostage to that I can’t control

Its peace and love that resides deep in my soul

All of this anger and hate will it rid this world it’s hard to imagine and see

All I know for sure is that it can start with me

It doesn’t take long to feel the kindness from a warm embrace

To be captivated by the love and tenderness in a strangers face

It’s this kind of optimism that inspires me to the core of my soul

Living each day feeling grateful my striving goal

The world is changing before my eyes

As rulers crumble and leaders rise

Tracey Speares 

Copyright (May 2011)"

I Gotta A Feeling...

Waking up to an outdoor temperature registering -27 degrees C , the typical feeling would be damn it's cold out there. Yes even for a Canadian who really should be use to cold winter temperatures. In fact, I won't lie as soon as I opened the door to let my poor dog outside to pee, the thought was holy F$#k its cold. How crazy am I to think my little min pin who is all of 8 lbs would even consider wanting to cock his leg for natures calling. Poor little guy by the time he finishes, he can't decide which paw to hold up from touching the coldness of the snow. I can't even get mad at him for the odd accident inside, I wouldn't want to pee outside in this weather. That's a different story altogether!

In the midst of winter the gift of the blooming hibiscus warms my soul

 While the exterior might be projecting damn its cold out there.. on the inside the feeling of warmth brings comfort like a pair of warm long johns . Yes I GOTTA A FEELING...

I read this morning a beautiful piece from a book called Immortal Diamond that resonated so deeply with me. As Oprah declares the infamous "Ah Ha" moment.

It goes like this " Within us there is an inner, natural dignity. An inherent worthiness that already knows and enjoys. It is an immortal diamond waiting to be mined and is never discovered undesired. It is a reverence humming within you that must be honored." The finisher for me " Once in a while, this True Self becomes radiant and highly visible in one lovely place or person" 

When you experience that feeling, you know there is no turning back. How can you and why would you want to go back? How you see the world and everything in it changes. Its a gripping addictive feeling of the best kind.

Life is a reflection of what we believe, it determines what we can or cannot do. I think I've always known this to be true somewhere inside.

I am a firm believer that if we set our minds to something, there are no limits to what we can achieve. 

It may not be perfect. Why do we need perfection? It may not even be what others think it should be perhaps all that matters is that it is exactly what we believe it to be!! 

Honor yourself..honor what you know to be your true self, I promise you will know it when you feel it! 

Smile Bound- Thank you Guatemala and Operation Smile- Luke found his home

 I've been home just over a week now and it's been hard finding the right words to articulate this journey with Luke . I was given the honor of taking Luke to Guatemala to find a new home and I wondered how will I ever know who the right child is..and how could I only give to one child. All those worries in the grand scheme of this journey  I now realize were trivial. 

How lucky the world is to have such kind, caring and compassionate people who volunteer their time and skill to help others, and how lucky and grateful am I to have spent 7 days with this Operation Smile team to work and learn alongside them.  You can never forget people like this. The Dr's and nurses who came from all over the world and the local Guatemalan team at the hospital and volunteers who came together was a beautiful thing. 

Luke made friends all over the place , receiving lots of hugs and at times playing an important role in providing comfort and smiles when needed the most. He followed the route each child and parent followed during screening, he visited the pre-op area , the OR, and hung out in post op. First hand he got to experience the journey a child went through once arriving at the hospital. 

I came across a quote this week.." I don't know how to do this but something inside me does"  which embodies when you know something deep inside it leads you in the right direction. I am so happy it did.

Screening Day

Handing over the Peace Candle my parents gave me from Keswick United Church during a special mass

Colgate volunteers and PIT team

Medical records set up time- Luke helping out

Luke hanging out in in the PIT

Awesome people

Luke getting checked over by Nurse Cathy and Lucy

Luke following the same route as the kids during screening

In Pediatrics

Speech therapist Erica was busy talking to parents and kids

Hematology

Luke making friends everywhere he went

Dentist visit

Open wide Luke

Hanging in the Electronic Med Rec area

More friends 

Jess and Luke hit it off

Sister Gabriela loves Luke

In the crib 

Putting on his scrub hat

Child Life Specialist and Luke helping the kids to understand what will happen when they enter the OR

Sweet volunteers

After 2 days of screening, time for our team day which brought us to Antigua. The gifts I  found there were in the most unlikely places and they were not material items.  

Local artisans

Volcano beauty

Antigua 

Beauty everywhere

After 7 days what did I learn from this journey:

When you have faith and hope you find the courage to face even the scariest of things and we are never alone

Courage 

The overwhelming sense of unconditional love , kind , compassion and giving of yourself to help others brings joy from the inside out and its the most amazing feeling in the world. We are all humans connected..

The next time I  think I need something...I know I will be pausing and reflecting. 

Before you judge a book by its cover...explore the story inside

Material things are not the path to joy

Be yourself ..take risks..let the walls down 

Love

 On day 2 of surgery Luke found his new home. It wasn't a difficult decision at all, in fact we both knew he belonged with Yesamin. She was as beautiful inside as her story which represented exactly what Operation Smile is about. I am grateful and blessed to have met her and her mother Mary Elizabeth. 

Luke found his home with Yesamin and I know he will be loved

 When I left, Jim, Andrea and I never knew one another, other than the fact we were J&J colleagues. After 7 days we returned home friends and forever connected by sharing in this life changing experience.  Not to mention the friends made along the way  

Photo bomb

 Guatemala and Operation Smile I came home a much better person grateful and blessed for having this experience and the gifts you gave me are forever in my heart. Gracias! 

Thank you